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from TEENAGE EXORCISTS
I saw inside Katie Holmes' mouth I saw
inside
her soul. Is this a small town
Where ominous murders happen in the first scene?
Take it easy, Deputy Dewey
we were just–– we were just saying with our mouths
how everything
is out of control. No,
next scene. After the music.
Before the real characters. "He's an outcast,
but those lips say otherwise."
Not that I'd know,
I didn't get kissed until I was 17
In a heavy rain. Hard to say
what we were saying with our mouths, we were just sad.
The rain is never
hard enough. My god some parts of this country
are really pretty, and there are some lives
I just
really want,
along with being beautiful. Katie Holmes looks beautiful––
Don't worry, she won't die.
I wonder how old I will be
when she dies in real life
But first
they need a long shot of the school, of the sun and midriffs
it's what I thought it'd be
when I was a kid. It wasn't like that,
and this school is so full of adults,
Who is this vampire? Who are these
handsome
men? What English teacher would say that,
would even talk that way?
I want to pass notes
with someone. "I have masturbatory fantasies
in the lunchroom." But you can't have it,
whatever it is that you want. It sits over there,
out of reach. Everything is out of reach
even other people your age. Even love. There's always
like
a curator, a wry curator
to explain the differences
between you
and everyone else. I never even wanted
to wear a uniform but
I did want to be pretty. I chose wrong.
I didn't have the guidance
to tell me who I was yet. You have an hour
to sit,
to just sit with these people.
It's preparing you for
everything. Speak
in their language, if there isn't
too much loss
between you. It's happening. Now
the leggy one is dying, now the townspeople
are understanding, now
she's reaching her hand
for something
you don't have. It's noon, it's normal,
then everything gets creepy. Welcome to town. That guy
is definitely
a vampire. Don't trust
that guy. Not with your heart, sweater-heart,
girl-heart,
they're all hypnotized. But someone
will stand up to fight it. Josh Hartnett
always knows. He fights it
and we want that.
Do they all
have to get those awful bangs,
to join this secret alien club? Everyone
is against me, and my best friend is acting weird. The teachers
are in on it. At least the fridges
are always full at home
and the good ones never die. There's an angst
in the hallway
it smells that specific way,
just like you remember it
even if you think you have forgotten. Go back,
you'll see. And while you are there
get your death metal CDs out of the basement;
Bobby needs them
to save the world. It'll keep rewinding.
Sarah Michelle
Gellar will run down the street
in her prom dress,
but that was years ago.
you wear your oily seaskin
and I'll wear my rue. but I'll wear mine with a difference.
here. they are my dog's first canines
no not really. I got weird and I'm sorry
you were the first I ever
and then the rocking of the earth, gym floor. I fell into hellpit
are u crying in your profile pic
no? no I swear
just mired in shit. deep like in the devil's eyes,
the ones he keeps for girls. like a hope chest
full of spiders. is that thumping around us
from a pirate long dead
under the sea? it's my dowry. a pink flower bed
did ascend in my dreams, with jellyfish. didn't
change my eye color, that cream. though it had other effects
did he like my waist
it's been spun. a million spider sashes
silks. heavy lashes. my daughter she was fit for finer––
she had a crown. did community service
didn't deserve none of it. taffeta gown
from Jessica McClintock, closed years ago, who is
buried beneath that do you think
some ancient princesses. with totem poles
and the layers of ice, rock, and then lava and then the core
to which we all rotate. or something. what's more, I danced with him
until late, until way too late
there were even stars. we danced until they were sunk back into the night
we still got home before dawn though
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